another month has passed

Things are fine. Life is life.

Ups and Downs...


UPs:
-that we are fairly stable on the meds we have now so we don't have to go to the psychiatrist again for a couple of months.

-Ask for a handicapped sticker at amusement parks if you can! It is the best. We went to Legoland and got one last week. Great to get a little perk here and there when you have a lifestyle that is difficult.

Downs:
-One of the biggest challenges right now is date night with my husband. I can't get a babysitter (aside from my dad who we cannot abuse too much) and it stinks not being able to plan a date when needed. we often trade with a friend after kids are in bed but with the holidays we've missed a couple of months. Hopefully we can get back into the swing of things soon.  I have a gift card to Flemings that I got in the summer that we still haven't been able to use.

-We are supposed to move from San Diego to Houston this summer. My stress is going to overflow trying to plan this move for this child.  I try really hard not to feel sorry for myself but this situation is difficult for me.  I keep thinking "If I didn't have Calvin, this would be so easy. We could just pick where we want to live, find a school for the girls and have so much fun with and year of adventure in Texas....instead we have to find a school for Calvin, pay $40K for tuition, live close enough that I can drive him to school, worry about neighbors listening to him scream and calling the police on us and be in financial ruin after moving twice in a year and financing his school....."  I suppose I should count my blessings and be super thankful that we are going to a big wonderful city where there are schools available.  And have faith that it will work out. I know it will. I have a lot more to research and much more praying to do. I am sure it'll work out.

-Jo, my two year old is feisty as they come. She now has more emotional maturity than Calvin. Which is sort of funny, but also sort of sad. She is only two. Recently in the car Calvin was very upset and grumpy. Jo was teasing him by singing. (When he is upset he likes everyone to be silent and all noise bothers him) he turned around and said "F$*& you, Jo" and she said "F(&^ you, Calvin" right back. I couldn't help but laugh.